- To Kill a Mockingbird (Harper Lee) – a re-read so I can read Go Set a Watchtower with TKAM fresh in my mind.
- Will Grayson, Will Grayson (John Green and David Levithan) – because I love John Green and after reading Every Day, also David Levithan.
- Allegiant (Veronica Roth) – a kid at school gave away a huge spoiler so I put off reading it but with the film coming out this year, I want to read it first.
- Someday, Someday, Maybe (Lauren Graham) – I have discovered the joy of listening to audio books in the car or at bedtime when I’m struggling to sleep.
My first day of maternity leave has entailed a lot of waiting around in waiting rooms with a scan, a clinic appointment and a separate midwife appointment. The scan was fine – still showing an issue with Baby Boy’s kidney (which *should* be easily resolved after the birth) but otherwise A-OK; I found out I will not be allowed to go overdue because I am OLD (wahh); We saw that the boy is still a fair good size (now about 7lbs 6ozs with 4 weeks still to go); I realised how anxious I am about the birth in general.
Last time, I was totally calm about the birth but worried about the ‘caring for a tiny human’ bit afterwards. This time I know how horrible the birth was last time but am feeling pretty easy breezy about the afterwards bit (the bit that last 18 years 0r so). I rarely manage to find the right thing to focus my anxiety on, though, so I am right just this second getting anxious about all of it!!! Time for some chocolate…
Today was my last day at work before starting my maternity leave. It was a teacher training day which was actually pretty useful with a particularly uplifting and interesting session with our behaviour consultant Victor Allen who is a complete legend. He has such a calming presence and he also reminds us that above all, it’s kindness that these kids need. I also had a chance to hand over my classes to the supply teacher who will be taking my classes, at least to start with. I was of course elated to be finishing work for a year especially because it means my baby is coming and I really am very excited to meet him.
But I also left with a strange sadness: I was leaving behind this place which was my place of belonging. I was giving up my classroom. I was leaving my friends. I was leaving a part of my identity which I didn’t even realise I valued like I apparently do. So this is an end (for now).
But it is also a beginning. The beginning of our next adventure as a family. I can’t wait.
It always tickles me how differently Rich and I respond to the annual process of removing all traces of Christmas from the house. While I carefully pack the treasured ornaments with a twinge of sadness leaving a mournfully bare sitting room which looks stark without the decorations, Rich is positively gleeful to declutter the house. I even caught him whistling happily as he dismantled the tree.
As I start to think about my goals for the year, one of the easier ones is to keep track of what I read (as I usually do using Goodreads.com) and what films I watch. We have made a healthy start considering we are only three days into the year, with a pleasing bias towards Emma Stone:
- Bad Neighbours
- The Amazing Spider-Man 2
Today we spent some time getting ourselves organised ready for Baby Number Two. I am now 35 weeks pregnant and time is ticking on. We brought all the baby stuff out of the garage into the house and sorted through it, picking out the girlier toys. Whilst I don’t like toys being specifically gendered, I also appreciate that boys probably don’t want an abundance of fairy jigsaw puzzles. And having a sister will mean our Baby Boy will have plenty of access anyway to dolls etc. should he like that kind of thing.
It feels good to get more and more organised for the new arrival. My hospital bag is coming together and I think we have all the basics. Rich has the unenviable job of painting the nursery furniture. I have started ordering some furnishings for the nursery but I still can’t find fabric for his quilt. I will be wanting to finish it in time for his first birthday, like I did with Evelina’s, so there’s no immediate hurry.
5 weeks to go…
By the way, was pretty pschyed to discover this free (and simple) photo collage app called Composure for the Mac since iPhoto lacks this kind of basic feature.